Diet Limbo

Let me tell you guys about the biggest thing hanging me up.  I'm sure everyone's been there, done that, still struggling with it, or is so done with it- they are kicking butt and taking names.

What am I talking about?

Why do you plague me so?

I get all amp'd up and excited to make changes.  I feel confidant about my plan and prepared, and then some shiny new diet plan that promises quicker results with less efforts comes strutting in and throwing me off my groove.

I guess it's true, the grass is always greener.  Or this case, the other diet is always more sugar-coated (or sprinkle-coated, if that floats ya boat).

It's got me stuck in a weird diet limbo.  Instead of just doing something, I'm doing nothing.  Not even the basics, like drinking more water, add in some exercise, cut out a bad snack, etc.  It's like I'm waiting for some tide to come wash me back up on actually-gives-a-care island.

Luckily my family is getting back into a diet, which helps me tremendously.  I don't feel like everyone is walking egg-whites-only egg-shells around me lol.  And it didn't hurt that reality slapped me in the face when I saw my grandma body in the mirror when I went to the pool Monday night.

(yeah, I know- this is offensive to all the hot, healthy grandmas out there!)

Instead of just doing my thing- the sustainable, healthy way- I'm always tempted by those promises of big weight loss "in only 10 days!".

When it comes down to it- and I'm sure every person who has had a big weight loss and kept it off will say- all that matters is what you can do forever.

It doesn't matter if you can lose 10, 15, 20 pounds quickly by only eating kale, what matters is if you can keep doing it to keep it off.

And that's why I lose and gain back so much- because it is not sustainable.  If I feel like I'm depriving myself and I have to make a decision if "I'm going to be good today" or "I'm going to throw it all to the wind", then chances are...I'm not going to do it.

Previously, I had made a Willing and So Not Willing list:

It might need some tailoring because I am just not a girl that gets excited about the same re-heated meals everyday but it's a starting point that I'm going to continuing adding to to make a plan for me!

On the weigh-in front:  not weighing in until March 1st!

To combat my past tendencies of self-sabotage and allowing myself to go back to my starting weight/or restart later knowing I'll be at a higher weight (I'm not joking...it's messed up and I'm working on it), the only weigh-in that matters is the beginning of each month.  Goal this year is to lose 5lbs per month.  That is 60lbs in a year!  I've never done that!  It sounds so much more realistic and achievable.

Even though I've been slacking again this month, stuck in this weird diet-limbo phase, I will still hit my 5lb goal, but I don't expect it to be much more.

Hope everyone's having a day great hump day!